Surviving and Why

I asked this question often, as the child of an elderly parent who has managed to make all my years of growing up complicated and difficult. Most people say, he's 82, he's a widower, blah blah blah. I thank you for just trying to say something to make me or the situation better. Unfortnately, nothing will work. I often think about a book I might write, even though I'm sure a million have been written already.....but a book on growing up with parents with various mental illnesses (which names were not invented until recent years) and that it means despite all that, you can still grow up to be a good person, law abiding and most of all, a loving and devoted parent. Are there times that I ask....why me? Sure. Doesn't everyone? I could think of worse things, and others have lived far worse lives. So what do you do? You make the best of each day, vent to those caring individuals who will listen and understand, pick yourself up, make someone else happy, give extra hugs and kisses to your kids, and just be happy that you got up, have a roof over your head and can make as little or the most out of your day(s) ahead. No matter how hard another individual tries (and no matter how long) to complicate your life, you have a choice. Either let them or prove to yourself, you can be who and what you want. If you live with any type of torment in your life, hold on to something in your life. Believe in something if you can't believe in yourself. Be there for someone if you can't be there for yourself. Give your life meaning. You count. Don't let anyone tell you differently. God gave us many gifts and internal powers, let him guide you and show you the way. Pray. Believe. Survive.